September 2011
1 post
you’ll never see this. and this one i never come on. but, i’m sorry for the shit i did. and am doing.
regardless, i miss you. a lot.
i’m sorry.
October 2009
4 posts
randy pausch;
i didn’t know the guy. and until today, i’d never heard of him. i watched his last interview with i think it was 60 minutes,that’s actually pretty irrelevant, and all that comes to me is wow. i mean, here is a guy who’s diagnosed with pancreatic cancer, all his life he’s lived like a tigger, and he continued to do so. even though its difficult to accept, as he said...
i wanna piggy back ride !
shaun,get your butt over here XD
josher; il deal with personal statements later. josher; as well as like parental information. me; parentals
josher; ? me; lovely fucking word josher; are you correcting me by making it pural? me; hahah no ! josher; oh ohkay. you know you do that sometimes :P me; hah yes, i admit i do like to correct
our extreme loneliness;
caused us to do many weird things.we used to go into chatrooms,because inside ourselves we felt so lonely,just looking for someone to talk to.with an outrageous void needing fufillment we’d have high hopes for someone new to build them.knowing not what’s to come,but what we expect out of it.our loneliness had excelled to new heights - we depended on strangers for our...
BMI;
17.2? ohkay…
anyone wanna tell me if that’s bad or not?!
no school tomorrow?
let’s do it.
inshort; i hate the police, they do an extreme amount of uncalled for shit, with their nonexistent power. THEN when you have a fucking question they act like you aren’t even there. ignoring you FUCKING PIG answer me do your ACTUAL JOB dont fucking threaten to arrest me JUST ANSWER ME prick;
September 2009
25 posts
“undertheweather” il be much better by tomorrow
let’s hope.
“that little kid shouldn’t be on a leash ! he should be in my arms :D”
my favourite button
had caused me all the awkwardness in the world on bart.
OF ALL PEOPLE ! someone devoutly spiritual sits next to me. jeeez. haha. sadly,he didn’t mind. i did. i felt weirdly ‘incompetant’ ODD
i went to berkeley, for the first time in a long while. finally felt at home. i got three cool new buttons;
” freedom from religion “ ” when you change the way you look at things, the things you look at change “ OH and of course ” this land is your land, but we’re going to take it anyway !”
haha :D I LOVE IT
“yeah? and you’re an idiot; do you know what thaaat means?”
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it makes no sense.
god: you know damian. damian: what? god: i can somewhat appreciate your believers damian: why is that? god: well, excluding the fact they don’t practice verbatum they basically admit to existence of me with the belief in you ! damian: that is some righteously odd stuff. hah, we lead them to believe they should blame you or i for crap times and shit decisions. god: so…in a way...
aeron: do you get offended when biblical stories are told in English? me: eh, not exactly. i mean really think about it. it’s just used as ‘literature’ in this context. it’s not as though they’re preaching to me. aeron: hah,i doubt they’d seperate class time just to convert you back into a believer. me: psht, you’d be surprised. i’d say roughly its...
as accepted as we all never admit we want to be, it’s difficult not to analyze life as it is and how you wish it would be. to accomodate our insecurities and create an illusion of self confidence. to allow the thought of ‘pure happiness’, being achieved with acceptance, to grow infectious and deadly. so we spend countless moments nitpicking. only does it create unsatisfaction blinding us to see...
butNOinnocent;
duncan; gir reminds me of you (: me; awh ! (: duncan; haha muah hun ! me; that was rather sweet ! duncan; baby its true (: me; haha how? duncan; cause of how adorable and sweet and innocent you are (: me; awh (:
“one time, at bandcamp, i blew my head off.”
fuck you and her; fuck her because 1.i don’t like her. 2.i never liked her. 3.i will never like her. fuck you because you fucking smile in my face like everythings all ohkay yet you ignore me when you’re around her.wtfuck is wrong with you?and of course youll say i do it subconsciously,im not aware of it.you know what?I DONT FUCKING CARE ANYMORE. fuck that.secondly, why the hell would...
i don't want to have anything to do with you;
i can’t ignore; because its surreal. i won’t ignore; because its still there. there is no courage within me; to turn a blind eye. ignoring it blissfully; yet and still il try. though im a gun, with a bullet to spare. in a game of russian roulet. il try. it’s harder than you think. these problems aren’t excuses; understand they’re close to me. it seems as though...
and just like that, i’ve been reduced to that 13yearold insecure piece of waste. sorry,maybe? NO.thank YOU. for giving me a taste of the greatest pleasure of all; self loathing. we both know its all too familiar.
eh,dont open your mouth anymore.
“you’re not wearing a 0;you’re not skinny.”
– surrogate mother;
its the feeling you get when you can feel your burdens sneak up on you once more;
“we produce guns like snickers produces candy bars”
– Mr. Mcadams;
im there enough that i forget my own problems. you isolate yourself enough to throw me off. whether youre mad sad discouraged or hurt. i worry. i worry with my heart its not fair irdcare if you’re angry with me. just fucking tell me. so i dont have to look at you and you at me STARE. look down. sit in front of me and not talk. like you’d never seen me. YOU CAN TEXT ME. but you cant...
tamia renee dylan scales.
:D
you can sit in front of me, and blatantly ignore me. but everytime you need me. i drop everything. just to help.
grief;
it tends to get harder,before it dares to get better.
the universe graces your life with one person.yes,you may meet and greet many people and figure you’re the match together;but you have one person.one person that’s supposed to fit you like a hand to a glove.fishnets to a leg,etc.now,if you’re lucky enough to meet THAT person,you’ve found the universe’s gift to you. ETERNAL HAPPINESS. i thank the universe for my...
mourning; =/
August 2009
39 posts
i rather not look up, im only disapointed by you ignoring me. what a waste of an attempt.
tune in,tune out.
sign on,sign off.
me;i HATE squences haha duncan;Muah good job! me;haha ive a sun powered scientific calculater.did i tell you i bought recycled papers?!?! I DID ! duncan;Haha good luv me;i feel all responsibler :D duncan;Haha and environmental :D me;ts my nature ! :P duncan; Haha that was a cute pun
you’re feul to the flame; eliminate yourself from the equation. try to be a solution; rather than create an explosion.
budgetcuts;
now,it’s so damn hard to find and keep a seat. distraction from the children. rowdiness crowdedness. this is lousiness we’ve gotten a glimpse at the faulty district. its cracks incompetance the teachers are even thinking up a strike, its utterly ridiculous it’s only been two days yet im thinking upon ways to possibly transfer schools altogether. classes have been dropped. its...
myfrenchname;
and although i hate that new teacher with a passion, i love my new french name.
Madeleine Zoe;
today;
my classes are fucked up. im upset about it. what im more upset about is you. you and her. wtfuck? i get that she’s like ‘new again’ but you don’t have to fucking ignore me everytime you see me when you’re around her. wtfuck? i tried to have a conversation with you this morning just like last year when someone says come you just leave wtfuck? her. i dont even like...
chapter2;
I’m fearful. Last night, after exploring the theory of my failure and the possibilities of escaping a future planned out for me, it was pretty safe to say I was lost. More than ever it seemed. Going about being real I came to the conclusion that I’d have to leave. Ahh, leaving. everything I’ve come to know in these short sixteen years would have to be left behind for a life I wasn‘t even...
chapter1;
i fail. oh no,im not being melodramatic. i fail because i choose not to be passionate about what i succed in. there is no doubt that i fail, but by my failure im reassured through the influence of the universe. sure, it’ll steer me into situations that’re less than friendly, but never does it deal me anything i can’t handle. my best interest is in the universe’s hands....
hmm;
i wonder, how do you sleep at night? answer me truthfully look at me, tell me honestly how do you get up in the morning? answer me forget hesitation solve my curiousity i keep wondering; maybe. maybe,you’ve created a shield without guilt but denial clearly you can deal with that on your conscious all the while; im waiting. because i constantly wonder what couldve possible drove you to that...
theproblem.thesolution;
i don’t wanna care; no i wanna be as free as your mind is you don’t fucking care; no because you don’t think of the consequences those consequences im haunted with not being able to go past my reflection, without checking for imperfection or engorging peacefully, without damning myself constantly constantly. keep on thinking, ways upon ways to perfect the unperfected protect the...
she set’s a great example for groupies looking for recognition;
boats are made for floating;
WHY ARE WE SINKING?!
gotmilk?
im an indecisive cookie; it’s annoying ! i like the idea of being an environmentalist. … i sorta like the idea of studying the human psyche. DAMNIT. and then there’s my writing ambitions. im an indecisive cookie;
watch me crumble.
thismaynotmakesense..it was 2am;
aeron:do you think people are inherently good or evil or both? me:both.intent to do good,motive to do evil. aeron:i agree for most people but what about people like the nazis and stuff that can bring themselves to do horrible shit? me:for people like such,its the same.in their psyche theyre convinced theyre doing good by ridding the earth of people who arent aryan.the intent is to be good.the...
she uses lyrics like a crutch for unoriginality.
iusedaknife;
unihorn:
tamiaxyz:
myword,
that damn green band was hard as hell to remove !
LOL here here! i spent five minutes tearing that muthafucka off my flesh
mhmm ! but i saved it :D we promised bubbie !
tellme?
unihorn:
tamiaxyz:
my hipbone is bruised my back and neck are sore my feet hurt unbearably. and my head is throbbing. now,i wasn’t drunk in any way.how come i don’t remember how i hurt any of these things?
:O
i FEEL like an old man after friday!
i know ! we need to go to their show saturday,id too much fun :D
iusedaknife;
myword,
that damn green band was hard as hell to remove !